Officially 18. For 8 days.
Funny how 18 years have gone. Soon, it’ll be two solid decades.
I’ve learnt a lot, especially the recent years.
Let go. It’s easier. For you and for that person, you know? Nothing lasts forever(seriously) and happily ever after rarely exist. Fairytales just don’t follow up with the aftermath. Like ‘Life after happily ever after’. They just stop there, misleading us to believe otherwise.
Reality. We are all living in reality. Just let loose. Let go. Why hold back? Why mistreat yourself? Why lock yourself up? It’s your freakin life. Just live. It’s already as tiring as it is to battle through issues at school/work/whatever. Why keep up a battle with your own self. Arguably, you should do things that you want to be remembered for. But then, i choose to live by doing things i feel like. Because doing things you want to be remembered for holds some element of obligation to others. Don’t we all want to be rein-free? Of course, sometimes, under some circumstances we would have to. Like drinking that horrible herbal tea just so that my mum is happy. But then again, her mood will be good which in fact is beneficial to the world so it might not be a bad thing after all. Haha! But then, doing things we like always is a eyebrow-riser for cynics who feel that things we ‘like’ is in fact ‘wrong’. But let’s be practical, whatever we do at that instant time, would always be the right choice at that particular time. Whatever happens after would then be a matter of how things unfold.
I reckon i dont make much sense because frankly, after a whole day of Math really fried my brain. It’s another Math-y day tomorrow as well! CHARGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I’m sorry for mistakes and whatever i’ve done wrong in this 18 years of life. I would wish that i go back and re-write them but then again, i wont for they are a part of me now.
Like how Katy Perry belted it out, this is a part of me that you’re never ever gonna take away from me.
So I am confident to say i will continue making choices, mostly bad(that’s life) and lose a few comrades along the way(sadly, but true) in years to come! But life, give me your best shot, for i’ll paint the best portrait of my life.
So start turning the page. You only live once, you only get the luxury of one book. Don’t go in circles on one page and leave the rest of the pages blank. If you dwell too long, you might lose the remaining pages. At the end when the timer’s up, some people’s might have used it to its fullest and your’s might be filled only on the first few pages.
I’ve start turning pages. It’s time.
It’s really time.
This is me, 18 years and 8 days old.
Making mistakes,
saying lies,
breaking promises,
sometimes crying,
maybe laughing,
always grateful,
forever living - since 1994.
Thanks for the three birthday cakes, one fake durian cake, the amazing presents, the sincerity, the cards, the songs, and most of all, thank you Life for giving me so much more love a human can possibly get in a life, be it family or friends. I am immensely grateful for Life. It constantly gives me more than i can ever bargain for. For that, i am forever thankful.
“Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.” — Lemony Snicket (via independiente)
(Source: accidentalism, via independiente)
- Too old
- Dead
- With someone else
- In another country
- Not attracted to me
- Celebrities
- Fictional
(Source: ringorulesx3, via j-royall)
I suggest you just live under a rock your whole life where nobody will bother you.
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